Saturday, September 11, 2010

Look around you and tell me what you see

What are you grateful for? You may feel like you need to answer quickly or make huge sweeping statements, but I don't want to hear about that. I want to hear about the details: what puts a smile on your face even during the dreariest parts of your days?

We all have pain and regret, but we move on by learning from it. What have you learned and what will you be grateful for?

Here's my short list:
*A glint of new found confidence in Milo's eyes...we are granted countless opportunities to become a better person by learning from our family, friends & peers if we just allow ourselves to listen and set aside our egos. That doesn't mean monkey see, monkey do. Rather, it means watch, understand, and decide the path that is right for you. If you misstep, then trust your inner strength and instinct to find your way back to your path.

*A reminder that people may fall out of sight, but not necessarily out of mind (e.g. an email or FB update from a pal). It's true people don't necessarily want to know that J. Bloe is heading out for his fourth cup of coffee, but I find great joy in hearing the musings and whereabouts of those who have come and gone in my life and have left an impression for which I am humbly grateful.

*A memory of cold, salty ocean spray mixed with passages from Joyce. I may not believe in God, but I believe that something much bigger than my own understanding of the world exists. And the ocean, mixed with heady literature, is a good indication that this is so.

*A sunset that set the Spanish sky afire. I take great comfort in a beautiful sunrise and sunset. For me, these are moments of renewal...opportunities to start anew and feel truly refreshed.

*The smell of a cornfield under a summery star-lit night. People seem surprised that I have not crumbled under the demise of my marriage. I believe in unconditional love and the stars and a summer breeze remind me that it does exist.


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2 comments:

Anonymous said...

okay, i love that you are saying it and with style....1. i love memories i have laughing with friends...any friend....you don't have to travel far in my mind either to find a human will....i refuse to "crumble" to Henry's death. Ofcourse, i have in my own way...lol....buuut i am still here and after emotional weeks like this one i am also reminded of the day Henry met George. I saw Henry breathe differntly - he skipped and when he held George I thought it was a dream, with Mike by my side..how did we ever gt so lucky but at the same time, very aware, it was all going to vanish in moments.....it mimics my new mantra in life....i lo ve y ou

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Lydia said...

So the small things I'm grateful for, thinking of the small everyday things is a bit of a challenge, but those are the things that are more real so I'm glad you suggested it. My pets are on the top of that list. Every meowing head butt, every tiny rat paw on my hand, every form of communion with my animals brings a smile to my face and fulfillment to my life. I'm grateful for having experience love, but not feeling like I have to have love to survive. I am blessed to have moments with my brother where we can still laugh like children. The rare moments I can have with a book and a cup of coffee or bottle of wine, with the sun on my face and a breeze in my hair, or with my cat and a blanket snuggled by the fireplace, are most magnificent. When I am still able, despite my chaotic life, to immerse completely into the world of literature is peaceful and I am grateful I am occasionally able to make that escape. Thanks for getting me to think about these things. A person needs to do that once and a while I think.